i have posted this quote before but I was reminded of it today -
Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say. -- Tim McGraw
I am reading through my archives for my blog and copying some quotes and i will explain why these quotes have stuck out to me
he said "You can't change it by worrying about it. All you're doing by regretting it is worsening the situation by lowering your mental stability." He went on to say, "You had a bad test. There's no point in having a bad day about it because there is nothing you can do about the test grade. So get over it and get on with the day having a good time because when you've been in heaven for a million years a measly test grade isn't going to matter any."
The previous quote was talking about a physics test that I did not like the score on. It goes along with what happened this week with that stupid boy. I cant change what happened. I should not worry about it. There is no point for my life being ruin.
I got an email from someone I have not talked to in a long time. We are looking at talking sometime tuesday. I cant wait. I have thought a lot about this guy tonight while talking to mom. I was remembering a lot of our conversations and times together. And other memories from LU.
life is slowly continueing here. I am moving on. I cant forget about Chris, but over time it wont hurt as much. He will always be a part of my life and I can never forget the lessons I have learned from dating him. Some good came out of it. But I am not going to talk about it any more or try to think about it anymore. (Well when I talk to this person tuesday I will talk about it and then that is it.) I promise. I need to move on. Tomorrow (Actually today) is going to be a very busy day. I have a lot to do with the move I plan in December. I need to call the school I am looking at and talk to them about a lot of stuff. And if it works out finish the application and wait for an answer. I desire to be closer to friends and have someone to hold me accountable and to help me out and be there for me. I do miss the relationship I had with Jen at school. It was very special and I cant explain why things worked out soo great for us. But its something I miss a lot.
LU has been slipping into my mind a lot recently. I miss that place. I miss all my friends that I made there. Sometimes I wish everyone was back there and everything was fine. I dont like being in the real world. It is very hard. I miss the LU bubble (thought i would never say that) but I do.
hear is another quote. its actually from a song by switchfoot-
And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land
And all I see
It could never make me happy And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing
Anyways, back to my string of thoughts...hope you dont mind the randomness. :)
Another part of a song by switchfoot
Rumor has it You love me
Rumor has it the world spins upside down
Rumor has my only hope is You
And the rumors are true
I turn everything over
I give my future to God and will definately make sure of things before I jump into them. Plus I should talk to my parents about things before I jump in them. They are very wise and know more about things then I do. I am slowly learning about the real world but my parents have lived in the real world for a very long time. They are experienced. Sometimes I wish I had talked to my parents sooner about my problems and my life. I highly encourage anyone to talk to their parents about things. You dont have to take their advice but its still good to hear what they think.
I wish I had been reminded of this earlier - I just did not want to go because others wanted me to. I would want to go if I wanted to go. I do not do something because others want me to do it. Instead I do things because I want to do it.
thats good advice to me and I should sometimes listen to myself. :)
It is interesting as you read through old thoughts and problems and feelings and what was going on in my life. I am learning things about myself and remembering incidents and friends and the good times. I was also looking thru the picture collection I have of events and friends from LU. I wish I had DSL instead of dial up and then I would up load a bunch of pictures.
here are lyrics from a song that was played long ago at Jesse's funeral :
Heroes - we all need heroes.
Someone to believe in, someone who believes in you.
That's why they're heroes, they don't try to be heroes.
Doing every day what everyday people won't do.
They tell you smile when you are hurting.
If you can't laugh when you feel blue,
and you can't cry when you feel happy,
and the world will cry with you.
If you can't trust when trust is broken
and forgive along the way,
if you can't care when no one's watching,
then a light will light your way.
Heroes ....
we all need heroes.
by Kenny Rodgers
I wish I can express my feelings toward a certain guy. I had those feelings back at LU and I wonder if he ever knew I did, and I wonder if he ever had those back toward me. I dont think I can trust any new guys that I meet. But i know I can trust those guys that I know from LU :)Sometimes dont you wonder if u passed something up in life that you should not have. But God will bring things back into ur life if its supposed to happen. Sometimes I have problems trusting God. Maybe that is why i started dating chris. Because i was tired of waiting for a certain guy. However, I dont know why i thought that. Anyways, i said no more talking about it. I am going to stop.
here is another quote:
The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Job. But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a diver called Jesus. You will make it to a place called Success.
I think thats about it for know. I will let you know what happens when i talk with this guy
